One thing on my mind...

This week I have continued to have one main thing on my mind each day and at the start of each morning. This past Sunday our worship leader really spoke to everyone about , "surrendering ALL to thee." I think this is something so easier said than done and it has really sat heavy on my heart this week. As a Christian I felt like all was surrendered to him- my family, my husband , my love and my life. But, as I really thought about this I questioned do I really surrender all to him... when making a decision do I ALWAYS turn to scripture; when needing advice or to give advice to a friend do I give word from the Bible??? Do I use my quite time to surrender all to him? I have really been burdened with this this week and I am thankful the Lord has opened my eyes and my heart to fully understand the full meaning of surrendering all to thee, he deserves it all. I have really felt not worthy enough of his love this week after evaluating my self/relationship with the Lord God almighty. He should always receive all the glory and all to him. I am so thankful for his undying love.

Okay, so I feel so much better to be able to really understand my thought process on the subject and to be able to open up about that. Our life has been very "uncertain " lately to be honest. We are expecting our third child in a few months, we are having a girl??? (who would have thought it-really turns everything wild), we thought Elliot could possibly be going in another direction with his profession , making the decisioni to return to work or stay home with my precious children and I have been trying to come to terms with having three children and as a mother to my precious boys I have felt guilty for having a 3rd child. I pray each day that I will not be changed by the added responsibility of a 3rd child and having her as football season starts. I do not want my boys to feel at all "pushed" aside or like mommy doesn't have the time anymore. I am sure all moms go through this but it has really been hard for me lately. These burdens have weighed so heavy on my heart the past few months that it was hard to blog without saying anything so I withheld from blogging. I can't do that anymore though I love having this little blog and being able to connect with old friends, meet new friends and maintain friendships and family.

On, a lighter note Caleb has been playing baseball almost every night of the week until after 9:00 and on the weekends. Elliot is smack in the middle of softball season (undefeated in conf-looks like we are heading to state next month in Fayetteville), our anniversary is this Saturday, baby Camdyn Elliot is a mover and shaker ( we will hear her heart beat on Friday)and sweet Cannon Ty goes on his first field trip tomorrow. Here are few pictures of the men I LOVE so dearly.